Monday, 17 December 2018

salad days.

                                                           


                                                 


Am I selfish for wanting you for myself?


Absolutely...


                                                    Foolish,

                                                                    isn't it.


And so it begins...

Welcome all, to my eventful life I call,
                                                                             a walking secret.



                               I will remain one for as long as the


grass


                              stays
               


                                                              green


and so remains my


                       
                                 judgement.






I have allowed myself to fall quite infatuated for you, the ignorance is this bliss I desire, my sweet, sweet serenity. 






Wednesday, 26 September 2018

the tiger and her snake.

There is this man.

Something about him, from the moment I first laid eyes on him...

I felt comfort.



                     At home.
I dream about him,




                    like no other.

I want nothing more than a simple


                                                         touch.

My soul yearns for


                               him.

                                       The Yin

                                        to my

                                        Yang.

His energy is indescribable. He is so powerful in his own way.

My admiration for him, also;


                           indescribable.

He manifests

           my thoughts,

                      my mind,

                                my soul.

In the most loveliest way one could imagine.


I feel so at peace. To see him happy, makes my soul fall into a rhapsodic state.

To hear him sad, makes my


                  heart weep. 


I've put off writing this for a couple weeks to truly recognise my emotions for him. They are evidently present and mutual.

This is too beautiful.


 







Wednesday, 11 July 2018

/

I currently have a thousand thoughts circling around my head as I'm typing this out to you.


I guess the best way to describe the feeling I have right now is that

I feel disassociated with myself.

I've been thinking for a while. Being where I am now is going nowhere, I tried using the clutch of solo traveling for sometime now but still... there is something...

missing.

Whatever it is... I can't quite put my finger on it. That bothers me greatly. I guess I'm so used to having things, well,

within arms reach... if that makes any sense? In simpler terms,


my thoughts, emotions and anything that falls into the personal mental health category to myself is quite transparent. I am very good on identifying my mental state and fixing it.

But right now... or should I say,

the past couple months have been interesting...

I just want to see my goals,

my aspirations,

accomplished.

I am too distracted living where I am now that I can see myself pushing my goals away further than one can see.


I will try again...

I'll keep you posted.




 

Friday, 30 March 2018

men

a strong resentment towards them.


very little left in a pool of cheaters


manipulators



pathological





liars.

To my future soulmate,
wherever you are
I need you.

Please help me. 

Thursday, 31 August 2017

sigh

I don't feel well,

  I'm frantically trying to pick up the pieces,
    but my hands can only hold so much,
      before I shatter into a

million
   
       pieces.

I hope you can understand.

for my sunshine.

I don't know how to really piece this all together,

   I'm rather embarrassed, really.

I used to write about you previously in a journal I've lost 2 years back. I was so scared to talk to you, you were what I wanted all along. 

I hope for only the best.
 
    I have the best.

              you.

((08.31.2017))






Friday, 3 March 2017

You get lost with your passion.

How beautiful would it be if we all had the confidence of others.

To do what we want to do, without conflict.
 I think it's from the lack ....

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If I ever leave this earth, I want you to know that
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